Looking back ..

Its so funny, i'm at home but yet i feel home sick. 1 week ago, I was at Malacca. Today, I'm at Singapore. I miss Malacca. I miss the place, i miss the people. It was only for a few days. I think the stay is just nice. If any longer, i would miss my home. But now, looking back on the pictures, i think back on the time spend with gong gong, po po, ye ming, yi ling, xin hui, 3shu, 3 shen, ah yi po, yvonne, mvonne,shaun, xiao gu, tar gu, jowin. This Chinese new year holds a special meaning to me. I would not be here if i haven't got the skin disease call shingles.

I shouldn't be here blogging. I should work hard and earn money. But i think i don't want to sail. 我人太好了la，不适合做这份工.

Main Entry:	homesick
Part of Speech:	adjective
Definition:	nostalgic
Synonyms:	hankering, heartsick, lonely, longing for home, missing, wistful, yearning

Main Entry:	lonesome
Part of Speech:	adjective
Definition:	forlorn, friendless
Synonyms:	alone, cheerless, companionless, deserted, desolate, dreary, gloomy, homesick, isolated, lone, lonely, solitary
Notes:	lonely adds to solitary a suggestion of longing for companionship, while lonesome heightens the suggestion of sadness; forlorn and desolate are even more isolated and sad
Antonyms:	befriended, loved, unlonesome

Groceries shopping again!

• Ayam Sardine_______2.85
• Kaya_____________2.45
• Baked Beans_______ 0.95
• Skippy Peanut butter_5.10
• Prawn Cracker______2.20
• Chocolate Biscuit____ 3.35
• Lemon Biscuit______ 3.35
• Tomatoes_________0.70
• Nugget x2_________6.95

• Total____________26.90

And I made lunch! Was so sick and tired of outside food. Either its too bland or too salty. Toast was made by dad this morning lolz.. Notice a reoccurring theme? Time spent 30mins. Munching time 10mins. Cost priceless.. even rice taste better then outside! Nothing beats a home cook meal, Period! =>

I'm going away for a while
but I'll be back don't try to follow me
Cause I'll return as soon as possible

You see I'm trying to find my place
But it might not be here where i feel safe
We all learn to make mistakes

Run from them from them
With no directions
Run from them from them
With no convictions

I'm just one of those ghost
Traveling endlessly
Don't need no road
In fact they follow me

And we just go in circles
But now I'm told that this is life
and pain is just a simple compromise
so we can get what we want out of it.

Love hurts

Love hurts. Its not whats on the outside that hurt the most. Its the inside, those intangible stuffs that hurts us deep inside. Why do we then still hold on to those endless dreams? When every time we see each other is so tiresome. Is it fear that's holding us together, fear of getting old alone? How long must i endure? How long before it all breaks apart? How long do i have to wait? For I'm tired, so tired, so tired of all these that it makes no sense anymore.

Morning breakfast =)

What do you do when you wake up early in the morning? You go out buy breakfast!! Slept very early last night. Since the china man had fly back to china, qingyong had moved back to his room. And i have my own room back! At last. Been sleeping early now. Use to be after midnight, nowadays i couldn't even keep my eyes open until 11! Since i'm a early bird, this works well for me.




Won Tun Mee $2
Soya Bean $0.6
Soya Bean Curd $0.7
Peanut Pancake $0.8
You Tiao $0.6
Fried Butterfly $0.6
Total $9.70 + English Newspaper $0.9

Lonely souls

In the end, we are all just lonely souls, drifting through life. Trying to make sense of it all. Our mind, body and soul. Bring, Beginning, ending it all.

My lunch for the day.
Thought of buying wan tan mee but was lazy to go out.
Got my com running don't want to shut it down.
Playing some game on Playstation also.
Pretty 宅男 right?

Running, jogging under the Christmas sun, Busking in the morning light. that's right, I went jogging on a Christmas morning. It was great. Don't know how far i jog, but it was an hour of exercise. Damn Shiok!

5am

As i sit here by my desk, unable to sleep, unable to think, i try to gather my thoughts but nothing came up. Try to feel but its only emptiness that i touch. Where are my eyes when i try to see? Who will be my guiding stars? Who will be there waiting for me? Where is my light at the end of the tunnel, for the road seems long, the journey seems sudden. All i need is just some warmth, in this cold forsaken land.