Inspire

Sometimes i think how did i manage to write what i wrote. I guess its from the happenings around me. Things that that i see or stuffs that i imagine. For isn't fact a fraction of our imagination? Song and music plays a big part in my life. My last entry was inspired by that song playing in the juke box right now. =)

Hands down

The streets are white`as I look out the window.
I heard a knock on the door.
I open it and let you in, you stood at the door.
Your hands on my waist, the scent of your hair as you lean forward.
Your lips are smooth as they graze mine.
And you kiss me like you mean it, you mean it like i knew you would.
As we move by the fire place, lay down on the rug.
The fragrance of your perfume on me as we lay intertwine.
Your silky hair shimmering by the candle light.
The beating of your heart in my ears.
The air is bless as we breath the same breath.
Our movements fluid as one unit.
Soft sound of music playing blanketed by our sounds of passion.
Hands down, this is the best thing I ever remember, always remember.

numb

I'm scared, scared I'm losing myself, my core self. So I keep to myself, my thoughts, my feelings. This way, nobody knows what I think, know what I feel. I ended up not knowing what to do, how to feel.. With no thoughts and numb feeling, I change into what I fear the most. I become my father.

a feeling

In just 2 weeks, the ship will reach Singapore again. How time passes by. Its already 5 and a half months onboard. I feel empty.  Really loveless. Why am I feeling so lonely?

the reason

Here i am, all alone. No one else to see me. Not meeting anyone else. All the same, its all the same. And the only people you know are those who are sailing. Soon, a few years later. You find yourself all alone. And you don't know why.

Only a Dream

I dream about her last night. Dream that she was with me. We were standing by the sea. On a beach. She was right beside me. With her long curly hair blowing in the wind. She was wearing a black top and skinny jeans. She was holding my hands, I was leaning against a railing. She came up to me and lean on my body. Her head resting on my chest and she pulled my arms around her. My hands wrap around her, our fingers intertwine. The sun was setting, busking the sky in light pastel colors of red, orange and yellow. Children cycling on their bicycles, ringing ringing their bells. Joggers running by with music in their ears. Oblivious to them, 2 lovers are enjoying the sunset. In a world of their own. Unconscious of the world around them, they are in their moment.